Balloons de Feline | Fiction, Music, Chaos & Catharsis

Fiction for the ones who feel too loud, love too hard, and refuse to apologize. Written from the stage, the road, and the heart.

Born in Opp and raised in Enterprise, Balloons de Feline brings a gritty Southern heartbeat to modern storytelling. A lifelong creative, she has lived her art onstage and behind the scenes — from fronting bands to working as a stagehand, lighting tech, and machine operator for touring acts, union halls, and major music festivals across the country.

Her writing blends raw emotion, musical pulse, and fiercely human honesty — exploring love, identity, ambition, and the beautiful chaos of life lived loud. With roots in rock-and-roll culture and a soul wired for storytelling, she creates immersive fiction that feels like a live show in book form: electric, vulnerable, and unforgettable.

When she isn’t writing or building stages, you can find her raising creative kids, chasing sunsets, dreaming bigger than is reasonable, and living for the next spark of inspiration.
  • Calm in the chaos

    There’s a certain kind of person you don’t notice until something goes wrong.

    They aren’t the loudest in the room. They aren’t the most visible. They don’t need credit or spotlight. But when plans fall apart, when timelines shift, when something breaks five minutes before it matters — they’re already moving.

    This industry runs on people who stay ready.

    Ready to adapt. Ready to pivot. Ready to step in without being asked.

    Most people glamorize the front-facing parts of creative work — the finished product, the applause, the moment it all “comes together.” What they don’t see is the quiet discipline it takes to remain capable behind the scenes. The constant learning. The patience. The ability to observe instead of react.

    Staying ready doesn’t mean being anxious or on edge. It means being grounded enough to handle whatever walks through the door. It’s knowing your craft so well that chaos doesn’t scare you. It’s being flexible without being reckless. It’s preparation without ego.

    And here’s the part people rarely talk about: staying ready often looks boring from the outside.

    It looks like saying no to distractions. It looks like choosing consistency over urgency. It looks like building skills no one claps for — until they need them. But those are the people who last.

    The ones who understand that momentum isn’t built in bursts — it’s built in maintenance. In showing up prepared even when nothing exciting is happening yet. In respecting the process enough to keep sharpening the blade.

    If you’ve ever felt overlooked because you’re not chasing attention, remember this: the ones who stay ready don’t have to scramble when opportunity shows up. They just step forward. Because they were already prepared to be there.

  • The Quiet After The Chaos

    The holidays don’t just arrive with lights and noise — they arrive with contrast.

    For people who spend parts of their lives on the road, the season can feel less like celebration and more like whiplash. One month you’re living in motion: cases rolling, cities blurring, days measured in load-ins and soundchecks. The next, everything stops. You’re home — or at least stationary — and the silence feels louder than any PA.

    That shift messes with your nervous system in ways people don’t always talk about.

    When Your Body is Still, But Your Brain Isn’t

    Touring trains your mind to stay alert. There’s always something to solve, someone to coordinate with, a timeline to chase. When that disappears, your body doesn’t immediately catch up. You might feel restless, irritable, or oddly numb. Sleep gets weird. Motivation drops. You’re not lazy — you’re recalibrating.

    At the same time, being home doesn’t always equal being at ease. Family gatherings can highlight how much you’ve changed. Conversations feel out of sync. You’re present, but part of you is still listening for radios crackling or buses starting.

    The Guilt of Being Safe

    Here’s something rarely named: stability guilt.

    If you’ve spent years hustling, surviving gig to gig, learning to function in chaos, peace can feel undeserved. You might catch yourself thinking:

    I should be doing more. Why do I feel low when I’m finally home? Other people have it worse — I shouldn’t complain.

    But mental health doesn’t run on comparison. Feeling off during the holidays doesn’t mean you’re ungrateful. It means you’re human — and transitioning.

    For Those Still On The Road

    If you’re working through the holidays, the ache is different. You miss traditions. You scroll photos instead of sitting at tables. Time zones replace time together. And even if you love the work, there’s a quiet grief that sneaks in when you realize how much you’re trading to be where you are.

    Both experiences can be heavy.

    Both are valid.

    Neither cancels the other out.

    A Different Kind Of Care

    This season isn’t about forcing cheer or pretending you’re fine. It’s about gentle maintenance:

    Let routines be loose.

    Rest without justifying it.

    Stay connected in small, honest ways.

    Name the transition instead of fighting it.

    You don’t have to romanticize the holidays.

    You don’t have to hate them either.

    You just have to survive them with honesty.

    If you’re feeling untethered right now — between motion and stillness, belonging and distance — you’re not broken. You’re adjusting. And that takes time, patience, and a lot more compassion than most of us give ourselves.

    Wherever this season finds you — home, on the road, or somewhere in between — you’re allowed to take up space exactly as you are.

  • Road Smart: Real-World Tips for Touring & Camping Festivals

    Life on the road is a mix of magic and mayhem. One minute you’re watching the sun come up over a festival field, the next you’re troubleshooting a problem with zero sleep and a busted phone charger. Whether you’re touring with a band, working crew, or camping out at festivals, a little preparation goes a long way.

    These aren’t influencer tips. These are road-tested, dirt-under-your-nails survival pointers from people who’ve actually lived it.

    1. Pack Like You Are Going To War

    You don’t need everything—just the right things.

    Non-negotiables:

    Headlamp or flashlight (hands-free saves lives) Portable battery packs (plural, not singular) Earplugs (for sleep and sanity) Baby wipes (trust me) Extra socks in a sealed bag

    If you think, “I probably won’t need that,” you will.

    2. Label Everything. Yes, EVERYTHING

    Tours and festivals are basically adult lost-and-found simulations.

    Sharpie your name on gear, chargers, water bottles Use colored tape or zip ties to mark your stuff Take a photo of important items before the trip

    If it’s black and looks generic, it will disappear.

    3. Hydration isn’t optional

    Coffee counts as joy, not hydration.

    Carry a refillable bottle at all times Add electrolytes—especially in heat Eat actual food when you can, not just gas station snacks

    Dehydration will make everything feel ten times worse than it actually is.

    4. Respect the Schedule, but Respect Your Body More

    Tour life doesn’t care if you’re tired—but your body does.

    Sleep when you can, not just at night Stretch before and after long days Listen to early warning signs before they become problems

    Burnout doesn’t announce itself. It sneaks in quietly.

    5. Camping Festivals: Choose Your Spot Wisely

    Your campsite can make or break the weekend.

    Avoid low ground (rain happens) Don’t camp directly next to walkways or generators Face tent doors away from morning sun if possible

    Shade is currency. Silence is luxury.

    6. Lock It Or Lose It

    Festivals are community-driven—but not immune to theft.

    Lock valuables in vehicles when possible Use small combo locks on tents Keep important items on your person

    Most people are good. A few aren’t. Plan accordingly.

    7. Know When To Step Away

    Overstimulation is real.

    Take breaks from crowds and noise Ground yourself—bare feet on grass, deep breaths It’s okay to say no to one more thing

    Protecting your energy helps you last longer on the road.

    8. Look Out For Each Other

    Tour and festival life runs on unspoken teamwork.

    Check in on your people Share water, snacks, and shade Speak up if something feels off

    Community is the real backbone of the road.

    Final Thought

    The road will test you—but it also teaches you. Preparation keeps the chaos manageable, and awareness keeps the magic alive. Whether you’re chasing stages, sunsets, or just trying to survive another long load-out, take care of yourself and the people around you.

    The show goes on—but only if we do.

  • When the Mind Says “Pause”: The Power of Micro-Recovery in a High-Pressure Life

    Most conversations about mental awareness focus on the big things — burnout, breakdowns, major life pivots.

    But lately I’ve been thinking about something smaller. Quieter. Almost invisible.

    Micro-Recovery

    It’s the skill of giving yourself tiny moments of reset long before your mind throws the full emergency brake.

    In touring, creative work, parenting, and just trying to make it through the day in 2025, we all know that pressure builds fast. Not always in dramatic ways — sometimes it’s a stack of little frustrations, unfinished tasks, or the emotional weight of holding everything together.

    And while everyone talks about “self-care,” nobody talks about the tiny checkpoints your brain tries to give you:

    That moment you zone out staring at your coffee That sudden urge to step outside for air That feeling of “I can’t hear one more notification right now” That heavy sigh that hangs longer than it should

    These are not weaknesses.

    These are early warning signs — whispers from your nervous system saying:

    “Hey… I need 30 seconds. Not a vacation. Just a moment.”

    Why Micro-Recovery Matters

    Because most of us don’t have the luxury of dropping everything for a full mental reset.

    Kids need us. Jobs demand us. Bills show up on schedule even when our energy doesn’t.

    But micro-recovery is something you can do in real time:

    – A 60-second breathing break

    – Walking into a quieter room for a minute

    – Sitting in your car with the radio off

    – Stretching your back and unclenching your jaw

    – Resetting your shoulders from around your ears

    – Drinking water before your brain fog becomes a storm

    These tiny resets keep your mind from tipping into overwhelm without needing a full shutdown to recover. They help your body stay out of fight-or-flight and remind you that you’re human — not a machine.

    You Don’t Have To Earn Rest

    A lot of us were raised to believe rest must be “deserved.”

    That running yourself into the ground is normal.

    That pausing makes you lazy or unreliable.

    But here’s the truth:

    Humans perform better when they don’t ignore themselves.

    You don’t wait for your car engine to blow before adding oil.

    You don’t wait for your phone to die before plugging it in.

    Your brain deserves the same maintenance.

    Try This Today

    Pick one micro-recovery habit.

    Not a lifestyle overhaul. Not a whole new routine.

    Just one.

    Something like:

    “Every time I take a sip of water, I take one deep breath.” “Before I open a new app, I unclench my jaw.” “Every time I walk into another room, I drop my shoulders.”

    Tiny things.

    Small reminders you’re worth caring for, even in the in-between moments.

    And if no one has told you today:

    You’re doing a lot.

    You’re carrying more than people see.

    And you deserve to feel supported — especially by yourself.

  • We Have to Talk About This: The Misunderstanding That’s Quietly Hurting The Live Entertainment Industry

    There’s a mindset that still creeps through touring culture — one that gets passed down like old lore:

    If you’re overwhelmed, just keep moving.

    If you’re hurting, stay quiet.

    If you can’t hide it, step aside so someone “stronger” can take your spot.

    But that approach has never protected anyone.

    It’s outdated.

    And honestly? It’s dangerous.

    This Industry Isn’t Built by Perfect People — It’s Built by Capable Ones

    Anyone who’s ever been part of a real tour knows that good crew members aren’t interchangeable.

    They’re hard to find.

    Harder to keep.

    And nearly impossible to replace once they’ve become part of the backbone of a show.

    You can’t teach instinct under pressure.

    You can’t download experience.

    You can’t replicate the kind of problem-solving that only comes from years in the trenches.

    So when someone who’s genuinely good at what they do starts having a tough season, the answer is not to toss them aside like dead weight.

    That’s not how touring works.

    And it’s definitely not how people work.

    Struggle Isn’t a Disqualification — It’s a Human Reality

    Mental health doesn’t sit in a neat little box.

    It shifts with life, stress, history, illness, trauma, exhaustion — all the things we pretend don’t exist once we’re backstage under show lights.

    But the truth is this:

    A person can be incredibly skilled and still have days where they’re fighting their own mind.

    That doesn’t make them unreliable.

    It doesn’t make them weak.

    And it sure doesn’t make them disposable.

    If anything, it proves that the people holding these shows together are human — not machines — even though the industry often expects machine-like endurance.

    The People You Look Up To Have Struggled, Too

    We rarely talk about it, but the calmest, most collected, most admired folks on tour have had their own moments of burnout, fear, grief, anxiety, and everything in between.

    Some just learned how to hide it because the culture demanded silence.

    But being praised doesn’t erase pressure.

    Being respected doesn’t erase struggle.

    We Don’t Lose People Because They’re Struggling — We Lose Them Because No One Supported Them

    This is the part that hurts the most:

    Good people burn out and disappear from the industry not because they lacked ability, but because no one made space for the reality of being human.

    Imagine how much stronger touring would be if support wasn’t treated like a luxury.

    If asking for help wasn’t viewed as a red flag.

    If we stopped acting like vulnerability means someone can’t do their job.

    People can heal.

    People can learn tools.

    People can come back stronger.

    But they can’t do any of that if the message they hear is:

    You’re only valuable when you’re unbreakable.

    If We Want a Better Industry, We Have to Start Protecting the People Who Keep It Running

    We don’t preserve the future of touring by pushing out the exact people who carry decades of knowledge.

    We preserve it by actually seeing them.

    Checking on them.

    Making space for their humanity — not just their skill set.

    A crew that feels supported works better, stays longer, communicates deeper, and builds shows that feel more sustainable — not just survivable.

    Because at the end of the day:

    People matter more than perfection.

    Skill doesn’t disappear when someone is having a rough chapter.

    And struggle is not the opposite of strength — it’s part of being alive.

    This industry thrives when its people do.

    And that starts with changing the way we treat each other behind the scenes.

  • Finding Comfort in Motion: How Constant Change Shapes Creative Souls

    There’s something strange and beautiful about living a life that never sits still. Whether you’re a traveler, a touring tech, a musician, or just someone who feels most alive on the move, constant motion has a way of reshaping who you are.

    For some people, change feels like chaos. For others, it feels like oxygen.

    Lately, I’ve been thinking about how the rhythm of movement — the miles, the cities, the unexpected detours — creates a different kind of comfort. Not the “soft blanket and warm lamp at home” kind of comfort. More like a pulse. A momentum. A sense that life is happening with you, not around you.

    When you spend your life in transition, you start to build rituals that ground you.

    A favorite hoodie. A certain playlist. A coffee order that tastes like stability.

    You realize that home isn’t always a place — sometimes it’s a routine you recreate wherever your feet land.

    And here’s the thing: people who live in motion learn to adapt in ways others never have to. You learn how to restart without falling apart. You learn to be brave, even when things feel unfamiliar. Most importantly, you learn to listen to yourself when everything around you is loud.

    If you’ve ever felt “different,” or like you don’t fit the traditional picture of stability, maybe this is your reminder:

    There is no wrong way to live a life.

    There is no wrong way to create, explore, rebuild, or grow.

    Some of us were simply built to move.

    And that is its own kind of home.

  • 🔥 BACKLINE GIVEAWAY: Step Into the Real Tour Life (Signed Books, Exclusive Extras & More!)

    If you’ve ever wondered what tour life really feels like behind the lights, the chaos, the adrenaline, and the grind—this giveaway is for you.

    As a rock fiction author with years of experience working in the touring industry, production life, and stagehand world, I’ve poured real backstage stories into my novels Backline and Crossfade. These books blend gritty authenticity with the emotional rollercoaster of being part of a crew, surviving long nights, and navigating mental health in the music industry.

    Today, I’m opening the doors to that world with a special Backline Giveaway—packed with exclusive items for readers, music lovers, and anyone who wants an insider look at touring culture.

    🎸 WHAT YOU CAN WIN

    📘 Signed copy of Backline

    📕 Unreleased copy of Crossfade (launching January — before the public gets it!)

    ✨ Custom Backline bookmark + official series library card

    🎤 AND your name printed in the acknowledgements of the next book

    This giveaway isn’t just about the books—it’s about celebrating the people who love stories about touring industry insights, live events, backstage life, and women in the music industry. It’s for everyone who keeps this world alive.

    🤘 HOW TO ENTER

    1️⃣ Follow me

    2️⃣ Share the giveaway post (Reel/TikTok/FB—your choice! My socials are listed at the top of the page under my pic and can find me everywhere by Balloon de Feline!)

    3️⃣ Comment “Tour life chooses you” + tag a friend

    💥 BONUS: DM me your Amazon review screenshot for five extra entries

    Winner announced December 15th.

    ✨ WHY THIS GIVEAWAY MATTERS

    Backline and Crossfade were born from the real-world moments I lived as a stagehand, machine operator, and lighting tech.

    These books highlight:

    Backstage stories most people never hear Mental health in touring The reality of production life The strength of women in the music industry The resilience of crews who keep the show running

    This is fiction built on truth—and you’re invited backstage.

    📚 FINAL THOUGHTS

    Whether you’re a reader, a music lover, a crew member, or someone who’s lived the grind of the touring world, this giveaway is my way of saying thank you.

    Thank you for supporting indie authors, supporting new book releases, and believing in stories that shine light on the behind-the-scenes workers who keep the music alive.

    Welcome to the tour life. 🤘🔥

    Enter now, and I’ll see you on December 15th.

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    Are you obsessed with rock-music fiction, gritty touring-life stories, or books like Daisy Jones & The Six? Then this Backline Book Giveaway is for you.

    To celebrate the growing excitement around my backstage-fiction series — Backline and its sequel Crossfade — I’m launching a signed paperback giveaway loaded with exclusive bonuses for readers who love raw, real, behind-the-scenes storytelling.

    🔥🔥🔥What You Can Win🔥🔥🔥

    Signed paperback of Backline

    A never-before-seen bonus scene from the Backline universe

    Digital art pack themed around tour life

    A special chance to be featured in the acknowledgments of Crossfade, the next book in the series

    This giveaway is perfect for readers searching for:

    rock music novels, backstage drama books, tour-bus fiction, indie author book giveaways, and women-in-music stories.

    🔥🔥🔥 How to Enter🔥🔥🔥

    Comment below on your favorite rock song

    Share this post on your social media

    Join my email list (optional bonus entry)

    Bonus: Review Backline on Amazon for 5 extra entries (ebook or paperback — just send a screenshot to my email-BalloonsDeFeline@gmail.com)

    This helps boost small, independent authors and supports the Backline series as I finish writing Crossfade, the next installment filled with emotional depth, tour-bus chaos, music-industry grit, and mental-health themes for working creatives.

    Giveaway Dates:::::

    Open now • Winner announced on Dec 15th

    Worldwide digital prizes • U.S. only for the signed copy

    About Backline::::

    Backline is a raw, modern rock-fiction novel rooted in real backstage life as a stagehand, lighting tech, and touring worker in the Southeast festival circuit. If you love:

    rockstar romance

    slow-burn emotional storytelling

    festival and touring culture

    strong female leads

    authentic, gritty crew-life detail

    …you will get hooked.

  • The road has a rhythm of its own—a messy, relentless, beautiful beat that never really leaves your bloodstream. Maybe that’s why every time I sit down to write, the world I build still smells like diesel, gaff tape, fog machines, and midnight parking-lot conversations. Today, I wanted to share a little behind-the-scenes of how tour life, mental health, and small-town roots keep shaping my stories, especially as the Backline Series expands into Crossfade and now Feedback.

    Because if you’ve ever lived on the road—or loved someone who does—you know it’s not glamorous. It’s real. It’s raw. And it demands more of you than most people ever see.

    From Enterprise, AL to Stadium Shores: Living the Heart of My Stories

    Growing up in Enterprise taught me grit. The touring industry taught me survival. A backstage pass taught me everything in between.

    Every time I write a chapter, I pull from that lived experience:

    4AM load-ins when your back is already screaming 16-hour days as a lighting tech running on caffeine and stubbornness The weird comfort of a tour bus bunk The mental toll no one talks about The chosen family you build under pressure And the way music becomes a literal lifeline

    These aren’t just story details—they’re the soul of the Backline Series. My characters aren’t polished. They’re road-worn, resilient, and trying to hold their lives together one show at a time.

    Just like the rest of us.

    Why I Write About Mental Health in this Industry

    This industry is full of some of the strongest people on earth—and some of the most exhausted. Long hours, no sleep, inconsistent insurance, chronic injuries, and the emotional labor of living in constant motion… it adds up.

    And if nobody talks about it, nobody gets help.

    That’s why mental health shows up so heavily in my books:

    Anxiety in high-pressure roles Chronic pain and injury masking Burnout cycles Relationship strain Isolation on the road Trauma we “push through” until it pushes back

    The goal isn’t to preach—it’s to make people feel seen.

    Because fiction heals too.

    Building Worlds from Real Life Chaos

    Whether I’m writing a festival scene, a stadium build, or a tour bus heart-to-heart, I want readers to feel like they’re right there:

    Standing on hot asphalt during load-in Hearing the crowd rumble under their feet Watching the lighting rig climb into the rafters Feeling the adrenaline spike before the first note

    This is the lived reality of so many workers in the entertainment world—riggers, stagehands, operators, merch crews, audio, lighting, drivers, runners. And these workers rarely get the spotlight.

    In Backline, Crossfade, and Feedback, they finally do.

    What’s Next in the Backline Universe

    I’m deep in the next installment, Feedback, and this one ups the stakes:

    More festival stops More city-to-city chaos A few unhinged artists shaking everything up A realistic look into mental health initiatives being built (and ignored) in the industry And the same raw, emotional, gritty energy you expect

    If you’ve ever lived this life, you’ll see yourself.

    If you’ve ever dreamed about this life, you’ll understand it like never before.

    A Reminder for Anyone Struggling on the Road

    You don’t need to earn rest.

    You don’t need permission to get help.

    You don’t need to break yourself to prove yourself.

    And your story—just like mine—deserves space to breathe.

  • Gratitude on the Road: A Thanksgiving Reflection

    Thanksgiving hits different when you live a life on the move. Whether you’re on tour, juggling creative projects, or simply navigating the chaos of everyday life, this season has a way of pulling you back to center. Today, I’m choosing to slow down, take a breath, and recognize the small wins that often get overlooked in the rush.

    Gratitude doesn’t always show up in the big, flashy moments. Sometimes it’s found in a quiet morning with coffee before the world wakes up. In the friends who show up—even from miles away. In the partner who supports your dreams, even when life gets messy. In the bandmates, coworkers, clients, and community who believe in your work. In the creative spark that refuses to burn out.

    This year, I’m especially grateful for growth—the kind that sneaks in through the cracks during the difficult seasons. The kind that shows up after heartbreak, after long nights, after starting over one more time than you expected. And if you’re reading this, I hope you feel proud of your growth too. Even if it’s not perfect. Even if you’re still figuring things out.

    Whether you’re gathered with family, FaceTiming loved ones from far away, working on the road, or creating your own version of the holiday, I hope today brings a moment of peace and a reminder that you matter. Your story matters. Your journey matters.

    Here’s to warm meals, good music, healing conversations, and the kind of gratitude that doesn’t fade when the holiday ends.

    Happy Thanksgiving wherever you are 🧡